Saturday, February 23, 2019

Oh you know, just another emotional break down

You can probably guess the content of this post due to the title.... So let's jump right in!

And of course we'll start with a story.
A few weeks ago I got a little cold, it was right after my infusion too. Needless to say I've been in a flare since. I contacted my Dr and he had me do the standard blood and stool tests. Results? Normal, of course. *long sigh*

Thankfully my Dr pulled some strings and got me an appointment with him for this week. #blessed So I drove to my appointment and went to the desk to check in. Turns out somehow the days got mixed up and I'd missed it.

The poor receptionist I'm sure thought I was a crazy person because I didn't hold it together very well. I got another appointment in March! Went to my car and cried my eyes out. I even called my parents and cried at them.

It was a mess!! I also felt kinda stupid. I mean how irrational is it to be crying over a missed appointment. But honestly it was just my breaking point, between the pain and discomfort and lack of sleep I wasn't feeling very stable.

But here's the thing; was it really irrational to express the emotions I was feeling? I'm thinking no. Maybe my belief that someone my Dr was gonna be able to fix everything was irrational. But expressing the emotions you are feeling in a safe and controlled way is good and very healthy.

You need to acknowledge and validate these feelings. It's only right and it's only fair to yourself. But then we act!! We don't just sit there depressed and crying forever. We do something about it. For me I went to the store bought some nature sleep aids, bubble bath, food... things that I can control. That's what we need to focus on especially when things get bad.

So if your in a bad moment, bad day or bad week hang in there. Control what you can. And let the emotions you feel flow through you. It's gonna be alright.

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