Dear future husband,
It's so strange, we've never met (well perhaps we have but I'm not aware of it) yet I think about you. You're in my thoughts throughout the day, in my prayers at night, it's as if you're already apart of me.
I long for you in ways I can't explain and words I don't quitw know how to express. I long to hear you laugh, to feel your arms around me, to see you interacting with my brothers and my niece. I long for the future we'll build together and the dreams we'll chase. I long to hold you while you struggle and turn to you for guidance and peace. I long for long talks and long walks, for baking and mess making, for magic moments and average Tuesday's. I guess you could say, "I am a cavern of longing-ness." (~Decoy Bride~)
While we spend this time apart; I'm striving to become. Become the woman you will want to marry, the woman God sees within me. I want to be beautiful to you, beyond the skin and into the soul. I want you to see me and see so much more. I'm trying to find ways to face my challenges with hope and with grace. I believe that in this time you too are growing, becoming and transforming. And odd as this may sound I'm trying to learn to be enough without you. Too reach for the stars and dream and hope and live. Because tomorrow isn't promised... and although I hope I find you in this life I'll certainly settle for the next.
I heard once from a past temple President that you don't marry your soul mate, you become one. I dream of the day we covenant much more than till death do us part but rather far longer than forever. I'm not hardly naive enough to believe we'll immediately have a happily ever after. But I do believe that as we face challenges together, whatever they may be, we will grow to become true soul mates and we will build the happily ever after I dream of.
Until the day we meet,
Xoxo, your future wife
