Hello friends! This week I semi-randomly decided to watch the new Latter-day Saint book of mormon video that covers 3rd Nephi chapter 17- which is definitely one of my favorite chapters.
During the scene while they portrayed the idea of angels Ministering to and with the children two specific moments struck me:
These moments touched my heart. And it was in an unusual experience. Because as I watched the way these children touched and poked the scars that Christ bares I realized that I knew exactly what that felt like.
For several years I have struggled with some scaring on my chest from some complications around my UC diagnosis. And recently my insecurities around the scaring has just been sky high. I have felt disgusted and frustrated and embarrassed by the scaring.
But in this moment watching that scene my mind reflected on the many times I have held or played with a baby or toddler and tentatively and shyly they will reach out a finger and poke the scar on my chest. Just as those children would likely have reached out to touch the scaring on Christ's hands.
Suddenly with this reminder in my heart I have felt an increase of gratitude for my scaring. I have thought of Him when I see it instead of dwelling on my own insecurities. I have felt such gratitude for this moment that connected me more fully to my Savior and that these feelings have remained with me.
I don't know if any of this made sense.... but I'm grateful for this experience and I never want to forget it. So here is where I will keep it.
