Doing things that scare me

Okay my title is a misdirection. Doing these things doesn't "scare me" it makes me feel self-conscious or insecure and it makes me feel different which is hard. 

I turned 27 this year and I'm still single. I also don't have the largest friend group so sometimes I don't do things because I'm not comfortable doing them alone. I don't want to do that anymore. 

I don't want to look back on my life one day and be sad because of all the stuff I didn't do because I didn't think I could do them alone. So here I am tonight. At a restaurant (no take out that I eat at home while watching a movie) eating dinner by myself. It's weird and I do feel a little odd. But it's good! So here's to the first of many "scary" things that bring me joy, even when I do them alone. ❤️